45 DAY / 45 POINT PLAN - DAY TWO: Reestablish Vision

‘Without vision - people perish.’ - God

I am an indecisive person.

At least I think I am. 

It’s been almost a year since I launched Chasing Lion Studio as a ‘for-profit social enterprise mixed media collective that pursues meaning through the arts in order to tell good stories and bring about social change.’ GASP. BREATHE. (Sidebar project: shorten vision statement.)

Almost a year since I “set out” on a wild adventure from the comfort of my home studio. Not exactly sure what I was doing. But I had ideas and stories and images I wanted to make.

It’s been a year of mistakes. Lots of mistakes. Misused time. Failures and flailing. Success. Setbacks and many disappointments.

I’ve learned a lot.

I suck at following budgets and my business plan needs work. Like ‘take her down to the studs’ kind of work. I’ve learned that I struggle to follow through with projects and often stall out half-way between. I’ve had many moments where I’ve been paralyzed by fear. Stutter-stepping and side-walking when I should have run. I’ve spent too much in my own head trying to figure out ‘what to do next’ that I haven’t done anything at all. 

I lack consistent persistence. Too many ideas. Too many demands. A million dreams keeping me awake. Haunting me. Rendering me useless.

I’ve also learned that I have ADHD.

But through the misgivings and misguided attempts finding my way - one thing has continually surfaced. One thing I’ve never wavered on. A passion that grows stronger by the day.

I love telling stories. 

I want to tell stories - as many stories - in as many ways - as I possibly can.

I want to tell good stories.

Create original good stories. Help others tell good stories. Share good stories. And somehow make a living at it. 

Good stories save lives. They have the power to catch imagination, inspire transformation, set new direction. Redeem, repair, restore. Stories change perspective. Stories offer hope. Stories speak the language of the soul. We know - and are known - through story. Ourselves-as-stories stitched into the fabric of the human story. Humanity’s natal tongue.

And I want to spend my life telling stories. 

Good stories. 

For goodness’ sake.

All kinds of good stories. Jesus stories. Original stories. Word stories. Picture stories. Moving stories. 

That is what I want to do when I grow up.

Tell stories. And I think I know which one to tell next. My own.

Hopefully it’s good.